Negative self talk- every addict is an extreme example of this

Every person on this planet deals with negative self talk but addicts and alcoholics are extreme examples of listening to it and letting it control them.

We addicts have a fixed alcoholic mind that talks to us with great authority. It cripples us with several different forms of fear. Some if not most of it financial. Not being financially secure and always worrying about money. Money is temporary like everything else. It comes and goes. At one time you could have been making a lot of money and now you aren’t. The problem is you still have to take care of yourself and possibly a family too.

Addicts area also extremely sensitive people. When someone says or does something we don’t like we take it personally. The book the four agreements by Don Miguel Ruiz says don’t ever take anything personally. What that person says has nothing to do with you but everything to do with them. The Four Agreements: A Practical Guide to Personal Freedom (A Toltec Wisdom Book)

We call this negative self talk the disease of alcoholism. It’s also negative self talk about other people. It judges  and find faults in others. It’ll tell you that that person snubbed you when in reality maybe they didn’t see you and if they did snub you so what? That’s is their alcoholism working in them.

Addicts basically freak out about everything. They can’t live in this world or face it unless they are on something. They just can’t face the music if something bad happens. We think going bankrupt or the IRS taking all of our money is the end of the world.

That’s why a real addict has to open their mind to having a spiritual experience. Addicts can’t let their warped thoughts dictate their life. Maybe they can allow something in that is greater than themselves to take over the warped thinking and not just react to the warped thinking when it comes in. When a thought comes in they must ask themselves. Is that a God Thought or is that my Thought? The fact is if an addict listens to self they are screwed. Instead, they should try the hardest they can to become the person that God wants them to be.

What drugs are checked in a 10 panel drug test and how it works

Failing a drug test can cause numerous problems for someone. If you’ve been using you want to make sure it is no longer in your system before the test. Here are some of the reasons while failing a drug test can cause some major problems:

  • Not being able to get a job
  • Losing a job
  • Going back to jail if you are on parole
  • Getting in trouble with your probation officer
  • Not being able to see or have your children

It is highly dangerous for anyone that has a job which operates heavy machinery or drives a vehicle to be under the influence of any drugs or alcohol. They put the safety of themselves and others at risk if they are impaired.

That is why especially in lines of work where peoples lives can be at risk that employers drug test their employees.

Opiates generally last in the urine from three to five days. Marijuana lasts in the urine longer than any other drug. I’ve read that it can last up to three months in urine but in actually, you can test negative for marijuana after thirty days.

The most commonly used 10 panel drug test is the one that is dipped into the urine right after the person being tested has urinated into the cup. It is done right there on the scene, in some rare occurrences it is sent off to the lab for further testing.

Drugs being tested in the ten panel drug test consist of:

  • Amphetamines (Adderall)
  • MDMA (Ecstasy)
  • Cocaine
  • Opiates (including codeine, morphine, oxycontin, vicodin, heroin)
  • PCP (Angel Dust)
  • THC-Marijuana
  • Benzodiazepines (Xanax, Valium)
  • Barbiturates
  • Methadone
  • Propoxyphene
  • Methamphetamine (Speed, Meth, Tweak)

Not all ten panel drug tests test for the exact same things.

Other ones on the market check for Buprenorphine which is found in suboxone. A drug used for those weening off of heroin to help with the withdrawals.

Alcohol saliva test strips

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Adderall Drug Test

Adderall is a tricky one. Several psychiatrists are prescribing Adderall to people that suffer from ADHD to help them focus and concentrate. However, it is an amphetamine and will show up as one on a ten panel drug test. It’s kind of a gray area. You maybe prescribed the drug by a doctor but that doesn’t mean that it will be ok with an employer if you are on it.

Cost of 10 panel drug test

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What is detected on a 12 panel drug test and why would you take it?

A  standard 12 panel drug test kit is for the detection of marijuana, cocaine, opiates (heroin, morphine, opium, smack), amphetamine (Adderall, Dexedrine, speed, uppers), methamphetamine (crank, ice, crystal meth), benzodiazepines (xanax, valium), barbiturates, phencyclidine (PCP), ecstasy, oxycodone (Percocet, Percodan, OxyContin, Vicodin), methadone, and buprenorphine.

The twelve panel drug test is the most thorough drug test because it can test for extended opiates and the misuse of prescription painkillers like Percocet, Vicodin, and Lortab that would not show up on a test with fewer panels.

The hair follicle drug test can detect drugs up to the longest duration. Other drug tests include saliva and blood but urine is the most common because it is the easiest and the least expensive.

There are many reasons why you should take a drug test. Maybe your employer has a drug testing policy and could test you soon, or maybe you’re being considered for a job and a pre‐employment drug test is needed. They might also perform tests because an employee appears to be under the influence of drugs or alcohol on the job, if unexcused absence from work or lateness is an issue, or if performance appears to be impacted by drug or alcohol abuse. What ever the case may be you have to find out if you test positive.

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Addicted to prostitutes – Addicts may transfer one addiction to another

Some alcoholics that get sober will transfer their disease to another addiction like sex, food, or gambling. They justify their new addiction in their heads due to the fact that they aren’t using drugs and alcohol and they need at least something to check out.

What happens is some alcoholics get “dry” meaning the they put the plug in the jug but they haven’t had a change of character and they don’t work the twelve steps. They don’t live their lives on a spiritual path and still have the same old dysfunctional behavior. Sex addiction like pornography can get way out of hand like drug and alcohol abuse, the consequences could easily get worse.

Do prostitutes enjoy sex?

I highly doubt that any prostitute enjoys selling their body for sex. Most prostitutes in the United States are doing it either because they are a drug addict or someone is forcing them to do it.

Prostitutes in third world countries do it more so do to poverty and men from the United States go over to these poor countries and exploit that. Sex tourism is popular among men in places like Thailand, The Dominican Republic, and Costa Rica.

Where do sex addicts find prostitutes?

Prostitutes are mainly found online on sites like the erotic review, backpage, cityvibe, and humaniplex. The biggest one out there is the erotic review. My red book was another big escort review site but that one got shut down. Backpage was forced to shut down their erotic services section but all the prostitutes moved over to the women seeking men section and are still advertising and doing the exact same thing that got the erotic services section shut down.

Many of these web sites have reviews on prostitutes that potential clients can read. Going to see a prostitute can be dangerous. Someone could be waiting in the closet and jump out and rob a John or the prostitute could be an under cover cop. That’s why these internet review sites have grown so much in popularity. These Johns feel more comfortable seeing a prostitute with good reviews because they feel that they’ll be safe and not get ripped off or get arrested.

They also can read about the prostitute’s performance and if their pictures are accurate. They have a better idea of knowing what kind of situation they are getting into.

Scouring the internet shopping for prostitutes can be an addiction in itself like watching pornography and can take up a lot of time. It’s a way to check out from reality just like drinking or doing drugs.

It’s not only the act of having the sex that is appealing to the sex addict but actually going to see and have sex with a complete stranger can get the adrenaline pumping. Just like with drugs. It’s not only the act of doing the drugs but going to get them in a seedy neighborhood and possibly getting ripped off. It’s the dangerous act around actually doing the intended act.

Stopping sex addiction

stopping sex addiction is like stopping any other addiction like drugs or alcohol. You first have to admit that you have a problem and that your life is unmanageable. Then you need to get help. If you decide to get help and start to experience a change in character you will no longer be interested in just the animalistic act of sex with a prostitute and will instead desire to have a meaningful relationship. This is what happens when addicts start to grow spiritually, they change.

You will need help and you could use the Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous and apply it to sex addiction. Just switch the word alcohol for sex. Most programs use the twelve steps but there are other programs out there that are more like group therapy and don’t come from a spiritual perspective. Any real addict needs help from a power greater than themselves because their mind is warped and they can’t do it on their own.

Reach out for help, get a sponsor, start going to meetings. A real addict can’t do it on their own and live a happy and joyous life. There are also plenty of books out there to help you on your journey other than the big book. Check out Sex Addicts Anonymous: 3rd Edition Conference Approved. There are plenty of different books on Amazon. These are meant to be suggestions.




The Alcoholics Physical Allergy To Alcohol Set In Motion Is Hard To Stop

It says in the “Doctors Opinion” in the Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous that we Alcoholics suffer from a mental obsession and a physical allergy to alcohol. The alcoholics defense against the physical part is to refrain from drinking but if they decide to drink the alcohol they are in big trouble.

The mental disease is activated with the physical allergy and now the cravings are on. After the first drink it’s almost nearly impossible to stop. The alcoholic can try to hold on by sheer will power but the warped thinking doesn’t stop. The alcoholics doesn’t care or think about the consequences of starting back up again. The obsession begins and all the alcoholic can think about is taking the next drink.

As alcoholics we have a negative voice inside of our head that we have to fight on a daily basis. We can’t deal with it unless we go to God. For many, this is hard to do and figure out.

If you refrained from alcohol for a while and have done spiritual work the obsession to drink can be removed but if you decide to take a drink, you will be obsessively thinking about taking another one and you will not feel content until you actually do. An alcoholic listening to their thoughts and believing them is poison. They actively need the help of God and the fellowship if they are to live happy, joyous, and free.

Many alcoholics can’t take the warped thinking and after a while give up and end up in hospitals, institutions, or jails. This truly is a disease of dysfunctional thinking that lives in an alcoholics mind set out to destroy them. For some, it’s either the program of recovery, misery, or death.

We are all created in God’s image and God’s will for us is to be happy, joyous, and free. If you are truly an alcoholic and your life is important to you, become willing to accept a power greater than yourself to help you and try to talk to something other than yourself because if we talk to our warped selves we are in trouble.

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Under A-Rest By Paul Hedderman Reflections on the Twelve Steps

Paul Hedderman, founder of and author of The Escape to Everywhere, speaks publicly about being rooted in non-duality, zen and recovery.

What we attempt to do here is share about what we are not.
You just see there is no relationship.
The whole how and why of recovery is to quit playing god.
Who are you buying off by all your doing? The god of your mind’s making.
I’m not looking for relief for self; I found relief from self.
There is no see-er that is seeing.
The best way out is to realize you were never in.

Hedderman believes there is nothing for a seeker to do except just stop being a self.

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Dr Harry Tiebout – Psychiatrist That Identified Alcoholism As A Disease

One of the first psychiatrists to describe alcoholism as a disease rather than a moral failing or criminal activity, Harry Tiebout was one of the first to wholeheartedly endorse Alcoholics Anonymous as an effective force in the struggle against compulsive drinking.

In one of his early papers, Tiebout discounted the idea, common among psychoanalytically-inclined doctors, that there was a classic type of pre-alcoholic personality. In his view all of the personality characteristics associated with early alcoholism were manifestations of the tension state accompanying intermittent alcohol binges. These features included:

  1. An unconscious need or drive to dominate
  2. A prevailing negative, hostile feeling-tone
  3. A capacity for ecstatic peaks
  4. A sense of loneliness and isolation
  5. Feelings of inferiority and superiority which exist simultaneously in the individual
  6. A striving for perfection


Harry Tiebout
(from the left) Dr. Bob, Dr. Harry M Tiebout, Bill Wilson


This volume brings together, for the first time, some of Tiebout’s most influential writings. Many of these pieces–from explorations of the therapeutic approach to alcoholism to instructive discussions of the act of surrender so crucial to recovery–are seminal documents in the history, treatment, and understanding of alcoholism. Together, they represent the significant contribution of one man to the countless lives shaken by alcoholism and steadied with the help of Alcoholics Anonymous, psychiatric intervention, and the foresight and commitment of doctors like Harry M Tiebout.

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AA Comes Of Age – A Brief History Of Alcoholics Anonymous

Bill W. tells how AA started, how the Steps and Traditions evolved, and how the AA Fellowship grew and spread overseas. Nearly half a century has gone by since A.A.’s historic 1955 Convention in St. Louis, when the founding members passed on to the entire Fellowship the responsibility for the three Legacies of Recovery, Unity, and Service.

This book takes A.A. members and interested friends on a quick tour of the Convention, traces the history and development of the Three Legacies, and looks at A.A. through the eyes of some early nonalcoholics who influenced the Fellowship’s history.

AA Comes Of Age goes into detail about key players other than Bill Wilson and Dr. Bob that were pivotal into the development of Alcoholics Anonymous like Dr. Harry Tiebout, Sister Mary Ignatia, and Father Ed Dowling among others.

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The Power Of Now Summary – From Author Eckhart Toole

The main premise of “The Power Of Now” by Eckhart Toole is to disassociate yourself from the negative voice that you here inside your head because it isn’t the true you.

The ego is constantly trying to separate you from other people, places, situations whether it’s finding fault, passing judgement, getting irritated, fear of public ridicule. There is a negative voice inside all of our heads that is our greatest enemy. It tells us not to go to certain places or be around certain people because of preconceived ideas and fears. Just be receptive and analyze every thought that travels into your mind and see for yourself.

We have to be able to separate ourselves from this voice and become much more aware of what’s happening in the present moment.

Most thoughts are dysfunctional. The mind is an amazing tool but is often over used in a negative matter. By constantly living inside our minds and entertaining every thought that travels through our consciousness we are missing out on what is presently going on in life. We let ourselves get controlled by all these negative emotions like anger, fear, jealously, and the more we obsess on these things the worse things get.

Most addicts and alcoholics suffer from a disease of dysfunctional thinking and that is the reason why we act out in our addictions. The alcohol and drugs is the solution to quiet the negative mind function.

By reading “The Power Of Now” you will become a watcher of the thought instead of instantly identifying with it. When you begin to do this you develop a  new state of consciousness.

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Emmet Fox Sermon On The Mount

Emmet Fox was a mystic and biblical scholar whose writings had a profound effect on the early members of Alcoholics Anonymous and still do to this day.

Emmet Fox Sermon On The Mount was a book used by AA’s co founder Bill Wilson and the early members of Alcoholics Anonymous before the Big Book was published. Bill Wilson and his colleagues would listen to Emmet Fox speak in New York City. It’s a must have to help the reader get out of self will and develop a “God Consciousness.”

It focuses on the metaphysical teaching of Jesus Christ and how you can apply them in your life to develop the right mind set. The main premise of the book is that whatever is going on in your thought life will be produced in the material world. As within so without. Your outer world is a reflection of your inner world. That life is all about how you perceive things. We have to rid ourselves of all defects of character that keep us disconnected from God such as anger, fear, greed, jealousy, etc. If we are to have a relationship with a power greater than ourselves, we need to get rid of all preconceived ideas and be completely receptive to God’s guidance by having a completely open mind. The ego is constantly trying to block us from having a relationship with God.

What did Jesus teach? Distilled from years of study and lecture, affirmed by nearly a million readers over the last fifty years, Emmet Fox’s answer in The Sermon on the Mount is simple. The Bible is a “textbook of metaphysics” and the teachings of Jesus express—without dogma—a practical approach for the development of the soul and for the shaping of our lives into what we really wish them to be. For Fox, Jesus was “no sentimental dreamer, no mere dealer in empty platitudes, but the unflinching realist that only a great mystic can be.”In his most popular work, Emmet Fox shows how to: Understand the true nature of divine wisdom. Tap into the power of prayer. Develop a completely integrated and fully expressed personality. Transform negative attitudes into life-affirming beliefs. Claim our divine right to the full abundance of life.

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